today...

today was very tired...early in the went to send athira to UIA PJ...(pusat asasi UIA)...crowded+not feeling so well=tired....amik masa lama gak lah nk settle sumer bnda...starting from 8.30 we waited until around 12.30 settle everything.. now, she is "siswi "...time goes by so fast... kmbar dh hbs skolah...n further study..atiya plak will be going on june...then after settle everything...went to sent ainan back to sunway...sunny day...panas yg tramat terik...lg buat jd migrain.. after that, went to HUKM hntar kak ima's stuffs..almost one hour waited for her...coz rmai patients and dia xleh nk kuar...cian tgk dia...around 3 o'clock she went down and she looked very tired....cian kt kak ima..bdn dia nmpak susut..mkn dia pn xtrjaga coz trlalu busy...dh la x tido dr mlm td coz on-call..but i noe she is strong and could get thru everything...mula2 maybe pnt then kalo dh biasa...ok lah tue...pnt jd doktor...tp dpt bnyak pahala coz dpt tolong org get rid from their pains...

pray for kak ima and all her fwenzs...take care....

aku berhenti mngharap sesuatu yg x pasti....

Jangan pernah katakan bahwa cintamu hanyalah untukku
Karena kini kau telah membaginya
Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah disakiti

Maafkan jika memang kini harus kutinggalkan dirimu
Karena hatiku slalu kau lukai
Tak ada lagi yang bisa ku lakukan tanpamu
Ku hanya bisa mengatakan apa yg kurasa

Ku menangis... membayangkan
Betapa kejamnya dirimu atas diriku
Kau duakan cinta ini
Kau pergi bersamanya

Ku menangis... melepaskan
Kepergian dirimu dari sisi hidupku
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yg telah kau sakiti

Ku menangis...
Harus slalu kau tahu
Akulah hati yang telah....

Kau sakiti

why????

am i not good enough f0r you??

am i not perfect f0r you?? (**even though i noe nobody is perfect)

am i ugly??

am i so fat??

am i not important to you??

why??????

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...

8th of May 2010 was the most important date.. it was Mother's Day....

n its not late to wish HAPPY MOTHER's DAY to my MAMA as well as all mothers outside there....

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY...this is for my MAMA...tq for everything MAMA...n love u so much...

You taught me everything
And everything you've given me
I always keep it inside
You're the driving force in my life, yeah
There isn't anything
Or anyone I can be
And it just wouldn't feel right
If I didn't have you by my side
You were there for me to love and care for me
When skies were grey
Whenever I was down
You were always there to comfort me
And no one else can be what you have been to me
You'll always be you always will be the woman
In my life for all times

Chorus:
Mama, mama you know I love you
Oh you know I love you
Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart
Your love is like
Tears from the stars
Mama, I just want you to know
Lovin' you is like food to my soul
You're always down for me
Have always been around for me even when I was bad
You showed me right from my wrong
Yes you did
And you took up for me
When everyone was downin' me
You always did understand
You gave me strength to go on
There was so many times
Looking back when I was so afraid
And then you come to me
And say to me I can face anything
And no one else can do
What you have done for me
You'll always be
You will always be the woman in my life

ALHAMDULLILAH

alhamdulillah syukur semua nya telah berlalu...

peperangan ngan otak dah berakhir....

lega skit...

kini..peperangan ngan hati+perasaan utk mndapat result plak...

smooga apa yg aku dpt apa yg aku target...amin..

Bersyukur....

aku bersyukur sbb semua telah balik kpd normal walaupun ada yg masih kusut...
aku bersyukur sbb dpt tmpuh walaupun perit
tetapi sumer dpt diselesaikan... TERIMA KASIH YA ALLAH....
kini aku boleh mnjawab exam dgn tenang....~amin~

EXAM!!!!

exam is just around the corner...
YA ALLAH...tenangkan lah hati hambamu ini serta terangkan minda untuk menjawab semua exam nnt...masalah2 disekeliling ku bukanlah penghalang untuk ku...aku kna kuat utk bertarung sumer nie...~amin~

kalo btol x wat bnda tu..xpelulah nk marah2 or tngking2...

kalo btol x wat bnda tue naper x bgtau the truth...naper msti berdalih2???

WTF lah....n now nk tngking2 aku..nk marah2 aku plak... aku cuma nk kn kpastian.....

susah sgt nk gtau yg sbtulnya...???perlu ker berdalih2?? snggup gna naper org lain plak tue...

one more time i repeat...KALO BTOL X WAT BNDA TUE...NO NEED NK MARAH2 OR TNGKING2...NMPAK SGT LAH....BNDA LEH CKP TNPA MENINGGI SUARA... AKU JUJUR NGAN PRASAAN AKU...AKU XKAN TENANG SLAGI BNDA NIE X SETTLE...AKU NK FINAL EXAM...AKU NK HATI N OTAK AKU TENANG TNPA MASALAH...

kalo cmnie lah stiap hari mati lah aku....aku x kuat dh nk brdpan ngan bnda2 nie...aku pnt... sometime aku nk jerk pg kt satu pulau yg xder pnghuni...tenang skit hidup aku... xpayah pk masalah aper2...

knape????

mmg kebenaran tue mnyakitkan..tp aku rasa itu yg trbaik skrang... sooner or later aku akn tahu jgak kbnaran nya..
biar aku thu skunk dr thu kmudian...
aku kna kuat sbb aku thu hnya DIA yg setia menemani aku...
DIA yg sentiasa mndengar rintihan aku...doa mlm2 ku...
YA ALLAH bntulah hamba mu ini....aku x mampu nk berdpn sumer nie sendiri...

I’m Sorry, Goodbye

sebelum bertemu denganmu hidupku derita
semenjak bertemu denganmu ku makin bahagia
semakin lama aku semakin tahu tentang engkau
sedikit kecewa ternyata engkau selingkuh di belakang ku

pertama-tama semua manis yg engkau berikan
membuat aku merasakan cinta sebenarnya
semakin hari semakin terungkap yg sesungguhnya
ku makin kecewa ternyata kau penuh dusta

maafkan ku harus pergi
ku tak suka dengan ini
aku tak bodoh
seperti kekasihmu yg lain

terima kasih oh Tuhan
tunjukkan siapa dia
maaf kita putus
so thank you so much
I’m sorry, goodbye

seribu cara kau membuaiku dengan puitis
maybe kau lupa bahwa aku pun juga manusia
yg punya mata, punya hati, dan perasaan
maaf aku pergi dan takkan untukmu lagi

no man no cry...

pernahkah kau bicara tapi tak didengar
tak dianggap sama sekali
pernahkah kau tak salah tapi disalahkan
tak diberi kesempatan

kuhidup dengan siapa ku tak tahu kau siapa
kau kekasih ku tapi orang lain bagiku
kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja
teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

kau tak butuh diriku aku patung bagimu
cinta bukan kebutuhanmu

kau dengan dirimu saja kau dengan duniamu saja
teruskanlah teruskanlah kau begitu

c0untdown!!!

final exam just around the corner...
need to be well prepared b4 go to the war...**war with my brain**..~lol~
huhuhu
but in the same time there's a lot of things that need to be done...
presentation...report...and etc...
hhuuaarrgghhh!!!!!
my heart is beating so fast.....counting the days....

p/s: pray for my success....

Al-Fatihah utk arwah DIN BERAMBOI

pemergian nya mmg dirasai...ketawa nya menbuat hari2 kita ceria setiap pagi....
mcm bru smlm kita dgr suara beliau di corong radio ERA...
tetibe beliau telah pergi tinggalkan kita semua selamanya...
mari lah kita sama2 sedekahkan AL-FATIHAH utk arwah..
smoga yg ditempatkan di tmpat2 org yg soleh...
~amin~
AL-FATIHAH.....

persoalannya....

ada sesiapa di sini yg boleh jawab x???
1) apa mksud if org yg kita syg ada simpan gmbar org lain slain gmbr kita(gmbr perempuan lain or gmbr ex dia)?????????????
2) adakah itu masih dikategorikan dlm kategori org yg setia??

soalan seterusnya nnt la plak...huhuhuh...

badan ku gatal2..

without a reason tetibe bdn ku naik merah2..
xtau pncanya ape...
kalo merah jerk xper..nie gatal tue yg x tahan..xbleh tido...
every nite terjage coz rasa bisa sgt kt tmpat merah tue...nie brtmbah lg merah nya
no idea sbb apa....

its all gone...

pnt aku menaip mlm td smpai pagi td...
akhirnya.... sumernya hilang....stress+nk nngis...
nmpak gaya x tido mlm lah mlm nie...
siapkan smula assgnment tue...

reMemBer!!!

L0ve the heart that hurt y0u...
but NEVER hurt the heart that loves y0u..

kalo dh hari2.......

kalo dh hari2 on9... cmner lah assgnment nk siap..(dgn perasaan yg tidak bersalah)
mula2 ingat nk on9 coz nk cr bahan...
last2...ini jadinya...apa nk jd nie...huhuhu...
still have 3 assgnments that need to be completed n the due date dekat2 plak tue...
wonder if i could finish it in 2 days only....boleh kot...
nothing is impossible...yg pnting semangat n dont give up...
hahaha....chaiyok2....
next week ada midterm lg....dua paper dh lps..tnggal lg 3 paper..
wish me luck....pray for me....

c0ngratulation...

u.p: kembar....

kakngah nk wish congratulation coz dpt SPM result with flying colors..
so proud for both of u...
for athira- berbaloi stay up smpai pkul 3-4 pagi utk siapkan folio keusahawanan...n xtido coz nk study especially for account...i noe u can do it...akhirnya sumer terbalas..... :-)

n for adik- i always noe that u can do it..even at the beginning u pnya add math down n u pn like upset about that...but see what did u get for your result? hasil usaha adik gak kan....so....try your best for your future..

for both of u...again congratulation....so proud for both of you..

dear LOVE...

ya Allah...kepada mu shja aku mngadu...permudahkan segala perjalanan hidup ku..adik beradik ku serta ibu bapa bapa ku..
terlalu bnyak dugaan yg harus ku tempuh...satu per satu masalah tmbul..
semoga aku dapat lalui nya dgn tabah..dan rela hati..walaupun perit..tapi realitinya aku xleh nk lari dr sumer masalah2...
aku xnk jd pngecut..yg hnya tahu lari dr masalah jerk...biar susah skunk berdepan dgn semua masalah..krana aku percya DIA telah mnjnjikan kehidupan yg lebih baik slepas itu...
tp masalahnya...smpai bile aku boleh brtahan???!!! DIA yang maha mengetahui segalanya..
smoga sumer nie xkan effect blajar aku....

KEPADA MU shja ku berserah YA ALLAH

attention to kak ima!!!!

perhatian2...
msg ini amat penting utk kakanda ku aima munirah...
kak ima....kakngah nk mntak maaf...bkn sngaja nk hilangkan...
tp mmg bnda (hp s0ny ericsson)tue nk hilang...kakngah mntak maaf tau...
sorry...sorry..sorry.....
please forgive me...i never meant it...
please forgive me..dont get mad at me....
(tiru lgu Bryan Adam..)
kakngah mntak maaf skali lg....

curious....

hmmm..just nk luahkan rasa curious ku ini....ada lah sowank bdak nie...dia nie nk kata xpndai xjgak....tp dia nie kira2 "slow leaner" lah...masalahnya skunk yg aku curious...yg mnjadi prsoalannya..hina sgt ker bdak "slow leaner" nie?? dia pn manusia biasa cm org lain yg ada kekurangan...tp naper smpai ada org yg x snggup nk terima kelemahan dia?? cian aku tgk dia.. di hina plak tue...cian sgt kt dia....dihina ngan org2 yg dia syg plak tue..."dh jatuh ditimpa tangga"..apalah nasib dia akan datang nie... harap2 dia ok..

tersakit kpala...

bnyak assgnment yg kna complete kan..
sumer nk kna next week...next week pn ader midterm..
wah..bnyak nye keje...pening2...

baby bru...!!

welcome to the family my little niece..she looks so cute...
mmg btol kata kak ima...gene prempuan belah papa mmg kuat...
total sumer my anak2 buah... 4 heroin 1 hero...

holiday!!

last raya cina..me wif my families went to PD for vacation (3D2N)...family vacation..
tp kurang sowank...coz kak ima x join ktornk sumer bcoz dia nk exam. mcm biasa lah during festival season..mmg rmai gyler kt PD..pack gyler...but we were enjoying every single tyme..mandi laut..da best part naik BANANA BOAT..gmpak gyler tyme tue..mmg best n enjoy..tyme jatuh mmg sakit gyler but enjoy..n my 3rd sis plak..(nan) dgn tnpa rasa malu+brsalah(hahaha) telah men"join" kn diri nya dlm one this family day pnya group...semua gara2 nk ber-karaoke..coz after Glory tkar mnagement karaoke jmban telah "dimusnahkan" (kecewa..huhu)..nan umpama artis utk group..bc0z dia dpt bnyak request dr "mkcik2" from that group..dh jd mcm konsrt la plak..beside that karaoke open..so ramai lah yg menonton konsert itu..kami yg bngga...hahahaha...n in da same tyme dia "terjatuh" hati la plak dgn dis one guy...bak kata DJ for that group..nyanyi lagu CARI JODOH twuz dpt jodoh..hahaha...mmg syok pg PD even rmai gyler..xdpt mndi swimming pool coz rmai sgt..kolam tue jd kolam "SATU MALAYSIA"..beratus manusia ada di dalam kolam tue...but ksempatan tue digunakan utk pg ke gym...at least dpt "menyihatkan badan"..(poyo jerk..haha) *x0x0*

CIPAN..!!!!!!!!!!

tetibe aku terbaca blog kakak aku....huhu...terdetik plak nk smbung pasal tue..
memang setengah org x boleh harap lngsung...mula2 tue ok lah..pastue hampeh...
dh lah x reti nk bersyukur...
aku pn sependapat ngan kakak aku...nk jerk pg jmpa member2 adik aku yg mcm "CIPAN" tue..dh tau pnjam duit pndai2 lah byr blk...agak2 lah kalo nk wat "taik" pn.. bersyukur lah ada org nk bg pnjam duit...mana nk dpt kawan yg cmtue. cian adik aku...
dh la brg dia pn kna balun. miskin sgt ker member2 dia tue??? x mampu ker nk beli bju sndiri??? perfume sndiri??? kalo x mampu...wat la cara x mampu.. hahahahaa....kalo dh gna brg org lain tue...pndai2 la mntak izin...nie x...brg adik aku dh jd mcm brg diornk...kalo nk gne main amik jerk..skit pn x mntak izin... mula2 dlu jer lah diornk mntak... diornk tue mmg x sedar diri...yg aku paling geram tue perfume adik aku. dh la perfume tue mahal n xder jual kt MALAYSIA..bwu tnggal kn kejap jer dh tnggal sparuh...mmg x sedar diri bdk2 tue.harap muka jerk cun...CUN KER??? hahahaha... tp kalo prngai dh buruk cmtue..lupakan jer la.
dh lah x reti bersyukur...aku mmg geram gyler... kalo aku ada kuasa, mmg dh lama aku hapuskan org2 cmtue..hahahaha...
hope bdk2 tue cpt2 lah bertaubat...mmg mkn duit haram lah kalo diornk still wat prngai....

LOVE

Still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss, it's gettin' better baby
No one can better this...
Still holdin' on, you're still the one
First time our eyes met, same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger, wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on...
So if you're feelin' lonely don't
you're the only one I ever want
I only wanna make it good
so if I love ya a little more than I should
Please forgive me, I know not what I do...
...I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me this pain I'm going through...
...if I need ya like I do
Please believe me every word I say is true...
...our best times are together...
...touch, still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough...
Still holdin' on, still number one
I remember the smell of your skin...everything
...all your moves...you, yeah!
...the nights ya know I still do...
...One thing I'm sure of is the way we make love
And one thing I depend on is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...
...Never leave me I don't know what I'd do...


p/s: dedicate for someone...huhu...