why???

i wont give up...
no matter wat happens i need to be strong n need to be prepared...~mentally n physically~
but nie bru skit..the real world out there more challenge than this one..sabar lea..
apa yg berlaku mesti ada hikmahnya.. DIA nk kita sntiasa ingat kt DIA..sbb tue DIA trunkan dugaan mcm nie..
the truth is mmg aku x kuat....tp aku kna lah kuat..bru kna skit blom kna yg lg mncabar....hurmmm....

dunia...

my life now is suck..more and more suck than before..salah ker aku nk beri pndapat aku sndiri?? salah ker aku nk luah kan apa yg aku rasa??
mcm aku nie xpnting dlm dunia nie..mcm aku nie tnggul..xder prasaan lngsung..
heLLo manusia...im human being..aku ada hati and perasaan...i ada otak utk fikir..i ada mulut utk luahkan apa yg aku rasa..untuk bercakap.. kalo aku xleh bg pndapat lngsung, baik aku jd bisu jerk.....and kalo aku nie xpnting sgt.. baik aku hilang dr cnie jerk..senang...manusia2..
kdg2 kita alpa..kita lupa setiap butir perkataan yang kuar dr mulut kita tue akan mngguris hati n prasaan org lain...org yg kita syg...knapa sumer tue berlaku??? aku pn x tahu..ssh ker nk jaga hati n prasaan org lain?? org yg kita syg?? jwpan tue ada dlm diri sendiri...sesibuk cmner pn...jmpa org yg pnting ker..aper ker...pndai2 lah jage hati org yg kita syg..xperlu nk marah2 if org tue bg pndapat..x perlu maki if org tue bg kata smngat...kerana sumer bnda yg kuar dr mulut org yg kita syg tue merupakan kata2 yg pnting yg dpt bg kita semangat yang lain kt kita...spatutnya kita rasa bngga ada org yg syg kita..snggup ssh senang sama2..brkngsi masalah ngan kita..spatutnya kita bersyukur...tp setengah manusia tue xpndai nk hrgai apa yg dh ada dpn mata diornk..byler dh hilang..bru mnggagau carik blk..tue lah lumrah hidup kt dunia..mcm2 ragam manusia kita boleh lihat...seolah2 dunia nie pentas lakonan diornk...dpt memainkan semua jenis watak...huhu...

boring day....

hr nie merupakan hr yg memboringkan...bosan gyler...mati kutu di buatnya..
semua keje x jd..xtau naper..skt kpala nya lg..rasa mcm nk menjerit jerk.. benci life cmnie..

i guess its not t0o late to wish SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILADHA to all Muslim in Malaysia n round the world...
my hari raya haji not happening like others..huhu (memandangkan kembar ngah SPM)..but ok lah...
mlm b4 raya kami semua masak kuah kacang, rebus nasi impit....n wat aper yang patut..
sumer balik dat weekend..n yg paling best coz haziq pn ader skali... dia raya skali ngan ktorank..
pagi raya plak mama wat NASI DAGANG n GULAI AYAM..perghh..sedap sgt..hingga mnjilat jari. memang tiptop lah. then kwn kmbar dtg braya but me n haziq dh kuar g jejalan....then mama,nan n kak ima plak kuar brjln..tnggal lah kmbar bertiga ngan kawan dia(kena study...huhu. cian2)..**wink2**
spatutnya jmpa mama kt da mines tp mama ckp rmai sgt n mama x suka tmpat yg ramai2, mama patah blk g giant jerk...but me n haziq still g da mines.. ktornk g tgk wayang..mula2 cadang nk tgk 2012 tp time ptg dh xder...ader midnite jerk. so terpaksa la tgk citer NEW MOON..ok lah citer tue..nk tnggu smbungan nya lama lg...baik lah bace novel dia jerk..hhuhu
then abis jerk movie twuz blk umah coz mama suh makan kt umah jerk..ktornk ingat kan dpt merasa nasi dagang lagi..rupenya sesampai jerk umah..nasi dagang nya sudah hbs...hncur hatiku mngenangkan nasi dagang yg telah habis..(~terlebih sudah~)so ktornk mkn jerlah nasi impit. sian kt haziq..kempunan nk makan nasi dagang mama..aku pn gtau mama yg haziq tringin nk makan nasi dagang...in da same time mama pn ckp nk masak nasi dagang lg disebabkan oleh bnyak permintaan..
the next morning hujan turun xlah berapa lebat sgt..n dat day pn ainan nk blk gombak dh. pagi tue mama n kak ima g ziarah org mninggal. me, kmbar, ainan, haziq n pika stay umah jerk. pagi tue mkn nasi impit jerk. mama blk dalam pkul 11 cmtue. pagi tue aku xtau nk wat pe...s0 tid0 kan lah diriku. huhu... best kot tid0 lg2 hujan..mmg x bgn lah...
dlm kul 1 cmtue terjaga n mama mntak tlong g hntar nan kt tmpat keje.. s0 just mandi ala2 cowboy jerk n siap. (terbongkar rahsia sude), hahaha..aku g hntar ainan ngan haziq. hr puwn mendung s0 kna lah cpt...hntar ainan blk umah dlu c0z dia nk hnta barang then bwu lah g hnta dia g tmpat keje dia...
then blk umah tolong mama masak nasi dagang. masak awal skit coz haziq nk blk dh...dh siap sumer...kami pn makan n mama siap bekalkan nasi nasi dagang utk haziq...(bertuah nya bdn)heheh...bby sape jgak??? huhuhu...
afta haziq blk akku tgk tv ngan mama sumer then mcm biasa lah tid0..........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

urmmmm...

today is my first day of working....feel nervous??? maybe...but get rid of that feeling...hehehe...
relax lah wey....(another side of me said..hahahaha)...new experince working in office.. before dis keje SkinFood...beauty boutique as sales consultant..ok lah keje tue..bnyak bergerak...
but now working in the office..in the same time this office not so far from my house...new experience for me..lot of new thing s dat i could learn. Time management, how to handle programme...and more...
but at this moment...i miss mybaby so much...oh angin!!! send my love n my hug to him...(terjiwang lah plak **wink**)
cant wait to see him n spent time with him...misss him so much....LOVE HIM MUCH2

MERDEKA!!!

well...im back...have been long time not updated the blog..been so busy especially dkt2 nk hbs sem..
project paper la..assgmnt lah...presentation lah...no time n space to breath..afta that final exam weeks...
16th of nov English 3
20th of nov service management n study skills
23rd of nov which is today n just now was my last paper...hotel and restaurant industries...
mau pecah kepala memerah mencari idea n jawapan...(poyo je lah)..hahaha...Alhamdulillah my papers sumer berjalan dgn lncar...n i hope my my result excellent n dapat mcm yg i dh janji ngan papa...~AMIN~
paper hr nie agak membuat org jd gyler...mmg ssh gyler...but i've already tried my best...n telah pergi berperang selama 3 hr...**wink**
n afta dis i akan keje as a part time staff at this one company..cant remember the name of that company but related wif my course jgak lah...
i hope i will try my best on this job...
NOW ITS TIME FOR ME TO GIVE REWARD TO MY OWN......................................

huhuhhuhu..

dis month adalah bulan yg paling memenatkan..asyik demam jerk dr awal bulan..n now pn bru baik demam...batuk2..n muntah2..Mama pn bising suh sntiasa pkai mask kalo kuar g mana2...ermmm....just untuk berjaga2....huhu..but thanks God not H1N1..alhamdulillah...
mmg penat sgt2..tp kna kuat coz exam dh dekat...takutnya...
i need to be strong...aku kna sihat selalu...n b4 terlambat i just wanna wish "SELAMAT MENYAMBUT RAMADHAN AL-MUBARRAK" kepada semua org Islam di Malaysia..semoga puasa kita sentiasa diberkati oleh Yang Maha Esa..amin...
dan smoga aku dpt puasa penuh kali nie...hehe. Aku harap larat n sihat spanjang bulan puasa nnt...
n aku harap aku sntiasa dpt berbuka ngan family aku n mybby...

aaaaahhhhhhhhh

im stressed......tension...dh lah bnyak assgmnt nk kna siapkan..
due date pn dekat2..matilah cmnie...
mcm mana kalo bby dh duk kt cnie?? sblm nie dia ader utk teman aku..kalo dia dh jauh saper nnk teman aku dh...saper nk tolong aku tyme aku susah hati...tyme aku sedih....i wanna b with him every single 2nd of my life...xnk skit pn jauh dr dia..
dia sgala2nya untuk aku....

oooohhh.....

dis week agak relax skit c0z 1 subject dh transfer credit..so my class kira ok lah xder lah rushing2 from this one klas to another klaz...but still tired coz ader klaz dr pagi until ptg... huhu... but mayb dh lama2 tue ok lah...coz dh lama x rasa situasi cmnie..haha...lgpn bru 3 minggu...so..wat do u expect...n mybby bnyak tol0ng i kt since i kt kj nie..tq cyg...really appreciate...

demam...

dis week im n0t feeling very well...tp trpksa kuatkan diri untuk masuk klas n uruskan sumer add+drop..transfer credit..gyler kentang bt0l my schedule...pact gyler...dr pagi smpai ptg...huhuh...
boleh gyler cmnie...
english class plak dh ader assignment...need t0 submit this c0ming m0nday...
mybby plak datang hntar ubat n makanan ptg isnin hr tue bc0z selsema i makin teruk...n i xlarat lnsung..dia trlalu baik 4 me... spnjang mnggu nie dia ckp xyah basuh baju lngsung...dia akan dtg amik all my baju n t0long basuhkan...dia xnk i letih...s0 sweet...l0ve him s0 much....

hush............

last week..ada minggu orientasi..dari pagi until ptg. damn tired but im happy..fasi2 mmg gempak+gyler2+sp0rting terutamanya risha...mmg best. ada game...ada briefing n ada sesi menangis...benci t0l sesi tue...last day orientasi tue ader sese brgmbar... syi0k hbs....hahahah...even pnt im happy...lg dpt housematez yg gyler2...hilang penat....

im back..

welll...im back...have been a long tyme im n0t sign in here...been really busy this lately...
Alhamdulillah finally im a bachelor student...haha....busy doing stuff f0r further my study... but in da same tyme im sad bc0z during my registrati0n day...was my bday... :(
but im ok wif dat...my best buddy Nurul came n visited me...celebrated my bday together wif her....at nitez..my bby came n we went t0 Bukit Jalil...watched Man U vs Malaysia...
he is s0 sssssssswwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeettttttt.........best day of life...

tired......sleepy

really2 tired n n0t feeling well...sore throat...huhu. Last Saturday fr0m m0rning until nytez n0t at h0me. 1st went t0 skolah adik (Seri Puteri Cyberjaya)..then t0 skolah kakak(Teknik KL)..bwk dua2 skali kuar..tp kakak balik umah..then went t0 Amc0rp Mall, met Haziq there..a&w..then stop at Haziq's house..amik printer..haziq and kakak send adik back to Seri Puteri. Me n sue truz pg Alamanda...
then, sue went back home. me,haziq n kakak played b0wling. kakak realesed tension. back h0me at 8.30..fr0m 9pm until 4am teman kakak wat her f0li0...me tid0 alm0st at 6am..c0z siap kan kakak nya brochure n business card..bangun kul 9am n trus teman kakak lg sambung wat folio...d0ne almost at 2am t0day...
damn tired n sleepy...

m0vie..

i went t0 watch m0vie wif him. B4 dis we have decided to watch Transf0rmer, but later then he told me that his friend said g0 n watch Drag me t0 hell. he said the best horr0r movie 4 dis year..huhu...that movie p0y0 jerk..tp takut jgak la...hahah...me bnyak kali jgak lah terpranjat...dun watch that m0vie.....hahahaha.....better go n watch transf0rmer...

mine....

Modern
Unfogettable
Honest
Ambivalent
Magical
Masculine
Amorous
Dainty

Hardworking
Awesome
Zippy
Influential
Quick

Hilarious
Astounding
Normal
Ideal
Special

i love this pers0n s0 much....n i wanna all my life wif him..n0 one can l0ve u like i d0.
bby..i wanna b with until end of my life...~amin~

hehe

last tw0 days..kalo x silap lah...pg sh0pping kt bb wif my loved one...gyler ramai. yelah skunk nie ngah sales, mmg sy0k hbs kalo shopping. ingat nk crk kasut...tp alm0st sumer kdai kasut ramai org smpai xleh nk brnafas. Sape yg xnk beli kalo sales smpai 70%...wah, terlebih sudah.vincci..n0se...sumer penuh...tp xper...at least trubat hati dpt bju yg i nk sgt...hehe...dia dpt satu n me dpt satu bju. Then kt0rnk pg l0w yat...just surveyed 4 c0oler pad n skin f0r our lapt0p, makan n truz balik. Kt atas jalan pn lama.jammed sgt2..n im damn tired that day but im happy..............

i noe i can....

t0day is my best day ever..i guess..haha...even im alone at home but i never feel alone..
my oven is my best fwenz...huhu...aku dpt wat mcm2 hr nie...n da most important is im success baking my own sc0ne n my express bbq pizza...yaho0...i noe i can do it...

watever...

hr nie aku puasa...(puasa gnti ma)..heheh...n my last day puasa gnti...finally...ive been waiting 4 dis moment.hahaha. Tp xtau la nk bukak puasa apa. xtahu nk makan aper...n at this tyme aku x masak aper lg pn..huhu..
And today pn my best fwenz ada kes mahkamah. Always pray for her. Hope selesai cepat. Cian kt dia kna 4llow her mom naik trun mahkamah. pnt n stress. i noe how she felt...but i noe she can get thru everything. i noe she will